awareness

yesterday, learning and awareness
I have opened the door to my childhood
I am an adult looking in to what I was stewed in as a child
raging but loving dad - confusing
screaming and blaming
me angry and hurt but shown to clam up and not express my feelings
Mother retreats into her shell
its like a sheet is covering her
an opaque veil that has on it a calm face but hiding the turmoil that lies just under the surface

I have felt both of these in my own life
causing a was within me
wanting peace but so angry

I make peace with my anger now
It was my inheritance to transform into something else
It is my life lesson to take what I have observed and internalized
and evolve to a higher power not above but with everyone else
maybe even shining a little brighter for the ones still muffling their light
A beacon of hope healing and love